Friday, December 12, 2008

Colin ... sexy?!

Well ok, this time I got tag again .. by ms man ling here cause she thinks I'm sexy! Not sure which part of me is .. but who cares!?! *proud moments* Haha! ok, that's just plain stupid. So anyway moving to the point, I find this tag rather interesting, that's why I'm doing it.. for the fun out of it. So here's how it go..

- Snap or just shift through the photo gallery and
pick 3 picture of yours which you think are sexy.
-Dont have to be revealing.
-Explain why you think so.

Oh but before that, while browsing through some pictures from my file.
Just wanted to show this to you guys, I just love this picture so much.
Sunlight.. learning how to appreciate it now

Ok ok :) Moving on..

Chocolates
I find chocolates sexy .. i know it doesn't make any sense but I've always felt it that way.
Haha! I don't know.. It makes you feel sexy?


Football
This is a sexy game. The game itself.. ever played futsal to the beat of 'hips don't lie'?
I did.
Gets you all pump up, start dancing to some samba beat while doing some brazilian's skill..
Football - one word .. sexy

Fender bass guitar
Now this is what I'm talking about! Ever touch or stroke your fingers onto this sexy equipment?
the body is just awesome.. the skin, the curve, the strings.. everything.
if only it's mine..

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

l o v e



for love is the Greatest gift of all

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

A boy in a real world

this chapter of my life is called : Internship

Yeap =) I've decide to blog on what I'm doing in order not to repeat myself over and over again about what I'm really doing currently, so here's to you peeps, I'll be sharing/answering all the common and most question that people would ask me.

I'm currently working at Bangsar in a company called V2 Innovates, it's an advertising company focusing on creative & interactive productions.

What's my role in this company? Well, I'm working directly under my boss, Valens [ Mr.C.E.O/ Director of V2 innovates ] Me on the other hand, am a Media Executive/Project Coordinator
for this company ( yes, name je glamour, but the work is....hell... seriously..haha)

My work contains as a project coordinator, well you all got watch 'The Apprentice' not? it's like that lar. Only thing in this company, when we do bomb each other also, no heart feelings taken. We all can take rejections! (not just for now i hope.. haha) oh and my boss won't say ' You're fired!' haha..die if so? As for a Media Executive? A whole lots of range, I also don't really know how to explain, basically advertising work lah! Haha. Lots of brainstorming and.. stuff =) can be tough? but it's interesting.

So as for my transport? Yes, I take the train everyday....KTM to Sentral and LTR to 'Pak Lah is being punished road' [ Abdullah Hukum ] So far while I'm in the train on my way home, I've been Fart at in such a position that everyone is all squeezed up together in the train plus I've been elbow-by-the-nose by some Pakitani *doot* fella. Don't you just love taking the train home? Everybody is just pushing each other and they certainly love to squeeze among themselve. They love the warm fellowship among one another. I just LOVE malaysian SO much ............. talk about love is patient, love is kind. Sometimes i just feel like strangling some of this ' idiotic-retards '

Oh well, All is well =) I do like it here even though, yes it's far, yes lots and lots of work to do, yes I'm not getting paid at all ( YES! no pay! ) but it's all good, for the experience. I have a good boss and the peeps around me are friendly, that's important.

Plus, After a crazy day at work and the stupid train, I get to go back home and rest or be in the arms of my beloved dear. That's good enough for me =)

- i will learn to enjoy my college life to the fullest,
not gonna complain so much d..







Monday, November 24, 2008

To my one and only


" You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby "

- Time can't erase a feeling this strong

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

My testimony..

First of all, I'm surprise that I was in Jun Yi's mind when he was listing the people to do a testimony, ( aww ) I usually don't do tags cause just .. lazy.. but felt that this is different. Jun Yi made a very good point in saying that..

"Your testimony is one where your friends can't argue with, because it happened. It happened, to you. So, share it. Share it with those who need it. Because there are people who need it"

So here is mine, short .. yet amazing.. and that's how He has been in my life...




He has found me! God has promised to be my guide and to lead me to paths everlasting. Psalm 139:23-24 " Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive ways in me, and lead me in the way everlasting "

Lost and clueless I may be, Having Faith and Hope is what keeps us forward knowing that God is with us and for us. I do struggle a lot .. in every aspect, but heh, I'm only human and that's why I have Him.

My future and my hope, I surrender all I owned ,
Jesus come into my life, and take control,
Give my heart and my soul,Everything I have I let go
Jesus come into my life, and make me whole!

What if - Samuel Oh ( Bus Company )

* photo's credited to teo eu-gene

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Monday, November 10, 2008

Currently...

In love with Peanut's new toy!!!
Canon oh canon..
EOS... -.- forgot what d.D 400D?
Whatever it is...
- can't wait to get my own DSLR >.<

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Ignites a candle, it's time to pass it on..

This song really touched me alot
and just would love to share with you =)




There is a candle in every soul
Some brightly burning, some dark and cold
There is a Spirit who brings a fire
Ignites a candle and makes His home...

Frustrated brother, see how he's tried to
Light his own candle some other way
See now your sister, she's been robbed and lied to
Still holds a candle without a flame...

So carry your candle, run to the darkness
Seek out the helpless, confused and torn
Hold out your candle for all to see it
Take your candle, and go light your world..

by Chris Rice, Go light your world


I guess i shouldn't stop here,
To move on, another ministry that is...

But I'll be here to help, whenever I can, In ways that I can be a help..
Don't want this to just be 'mere words' but to mean what I say...
It has been an honour, a pleasure to serve You Lord in this manner,
To be working with such awesome people who has this burning desire for You,

I want to say sorry if I made any unwise decision,
If ever I was treating you guys badly, or even with my words,
Thanks for reminding me all the time whenever I'm lost or blur,
and for being there for me..

God bless you all as you continue to ignite the flame in respective places.


[ fr.left : me, lyon, grace, mel.lim, joanne, joel, kelsern, bro.G (calvin) ]
[m.i.a : jordan & ivan]

- THE TEEN SCENE COMMITTEE-

I have to be honest, I'll miss working with you guys.
It's be a crazy 4 years for me. Haha.
All thanks to you guys.
*rascals!!!*

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Mummy I lost my head again..


It's stuck =(
help?


- Got to get my head straight
* the bear is just so cute*

Thursday, October 23, 2008

One step at a time

A small dude who was once known as 'boy', grows up as a teenager and now, turning into a young adult, never been loved in such a way, has a feel of what manhood is like and wonders how fatherhood is going to be?

Life isn't a bed of roses, That's for sure. It's the reason why we have God as our guide.

" come on now, one step at a time,
slowly..
that's the way"
He says,
"there is not a need to rush"

Responsibilities becomes more heavy each time you are growing older, and unfortunately that's a fact of life.

It's JOB time soon for me.

Am I game for it? oh yeah.. this is just another step I got to take.

In advertising, people thank you for choosing not to be normal

"What's that suppose to mean??!"

" to say I'm special then.. aww.. ok laH, thank you! "

"Lifeless as it may be, having the need to be creative all the time is a challenge,
definably game for it"

- i'm a big boy now =)

Basically, basically, basically

Ever notice? when I talked formally for a presentation or some what. I can't stop using the word

" Basically "

"So basically, it's very the annoying!"

Friday, October 10, 2008

Kelam-kabut'ness'


Each time when I look at my watch
or the clock when I'm doing my work,
this is how I see it.
HAHA!
Time just ain't at my side but I'm still chasing after it =)
I know I'll be able to finish my work!
Can't remember when I've been this hardworking?
Heh. Yeah right harkworking -_-

###

Anyway,
To those idiotic ego guys,
it is so darn hard to say the word
'SORRY?'
If you have done something wrong.
What?
In Denial it is? Don't want to admit it?
Why? Shy? Cause will lose your face?
Your face damn big it is?
Can die it is just to appologize?
Stop with the idiotical act.
Immature.. damn immature.
You are no longer a child anymore!

- If you 'felt' whatever I've just said,
then yes I'm speaking to you.
Grow up for goodness sake.
I'm Serious

Monday, October 6, 2008

And you'll never walk...alone..

3-2
against Man City

What a come back..


What else is there to say?


Just absolutely brilliant

Fernando Torres is my man!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Laughing Interview

It's from a Belgian Comedy show called "In de Gloria", so the whole thing is staged. It's a 'mockumentary' about a fictious TV show host who got fired because of his inappropriate laughing at his guests, a woman who got paralyzed because of a surgeon accidently cutting her spine, and a man who had a tonsillitis and got a bad treatment which resulted in a damage of his vocal cords. He didn't get castrated or "lost his balls" like some people claim. Anyways, the funniest thing I have seen in a while!

* If I'm in his position? I think I also cannot tahan lor, but not until like that lar. haha*

A Family portrait

Taken a few months back, thought of just posting this.
I just love this picture so much.


Presenting The Gan Family (",)

-fr left : me, cherylg , Datin Chua , Datuk Gan , and bro.G (Calvin)

Yeap, house isn't the same without her, Well you know who of course,
Just thinking about next year, when bro.G goes off to RBS and NS?
boy, it's sure gonna be quiet alright. Oh well =)

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Being stuck in 2nd gear



Colin to Brain

* Oi!!! Cepat sikit boleh tak!!?? Sangat slow lar you!!

=) a break would be lovely. to take my mind of 'things'.
my problem is i think way too much =/ bad

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

How 'bout a round of applause?


Yeap, that's right.. *Standing ovation*

- Liverpool beat Man U and Marseille. Thanks for the own goal once again. R.babel is the man.

- Felt the footstool players did a very good performance. Each and everyone cast member, well done footstool players, will continue to pray for you guys as you touched the hearts of those who is yet to know Him =) * I encourage you guys to see it. You'll definately learn a lot, it opens your eyes *

- I'm still able to stand on my two feet.wow. Brain exceeded more than it should have. I'm surprise cause it's been for a long time now.. seriously. More than I should be using.
*Seeking for an inspiration, gosh I don't know how everybody gets their inspiration. My Panadol is finising again, got to let go of those pills. I'm taking it as though it's like a mint. I know it's bad.

-Then again, i'll be able to get through this. *note self* No complains..


- in a difficult moment,

I believe that there is something good

that you can still dwell upon,

just got to embrace it..

remember now colin,

smile =)

You're not alone.



Friday, September 5, 2008

Wake me up when September ends

* Theme song for this month?

Hah! Yeah right, I can't be sleeping nor be away. There is too many things to do. Time is just not at my side. Time is gold now, time is precious. I can't afford to let it slip away.

On another hand, I still can't decide where to go for my intern. Intern wrong timing as well. Singapore? or just place my butt in Kuala Lumpur (much advise and influences says Singapore -_-" ) I'm scared to make a promise to my sister that I'll show up in Australia for her graduation cause I'm still not sure,but it will mean so much to her if I go ( then again, I'll get to wear a suit for the very first time, having my very own!!!! =D okok. *note* Go Australia - che che graduation) Yet .. Singapore or Malaysia? heck, even after this Usm or still Taylors?

Just one note, I am hearing you guys out, but please don't put the pressure on me or make me feel bad. I do want to do what I want and I did sacrifice, but now it's different. You got to understand. When the times comes, I'll make my decision andI hope you guys will respect it even though you MAY not like it. Plus I always believe that God is working. Maybe it's time to move on?

Ms man ling once said to me that 'Worrying is like sitting own a rocking chair. It gets you nowhere' .. but this time around,with much prayer... I need to make a decision.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Eyes through a 3.2 Megapix

Hello there.. I know I'm not really good with cameras but am still learning .. Hehe.. Found interest in taking photos ever since I'm involve in what i'm doing now and got influence by other people..friends =) I want a DSLR but .. maybe next time. So for now, prolly I learn how to take more good shots before I DESERVE to owned a DSLR. Haha.

love the Kopitiam.


While waiting for my mom..

love the sunlight.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Malaysia Ku

On the night of Merdeka eve, while waiting for a few more hours to celebrate Jason's birthday. I really wanted to watch some fireworks ( You know, being Merdeka and all .. some of you would know I love fireworks also thanks to Mr.Gan Kel Vin for telling me one day later about the Fireworks competition in Putrajaya -__- ) so yeah.. this year.. No fireworks.

So somehow while I was watching Tv , I wanted to watch some Merdeka Celebration, so I switched to RTM 1 and to my amazement, that's it la. I was glued to the event. It was just so funny, that it could have beat one of Spongebob's episodes.

(It's a band which I'm not even sure whether some of you have ever heard ) who wrote and perform a song an title ' Saya Anak Malaysia '. All I can say is that I really pity him cause he was practically out of breath while singing this song, I don't know why but he made the song sound so tension, There was like no peace to it? Come on man! Wrong timing to make this a rock song! While he was singing, I don't know why but he kept playing and messing his hair as though it's like some KISS concert ( Don't know to feel sexy or what) I mean for goodness sake! It's suppose to be some patriotic song? In front of the Datuk Datuk all, you doing this kind of nonsense!

The best part of it all was the chorus, this I really couldn't take. He just sang,


SAYA ANAK MALAYSIA!!!
SAYA ANAK MALAYSIA!!!
SAYA ANAK MALAYSIA!!!
SAYA ANAK MALAYSIA!!!
YEAH...!!! YEAH...!!!


As simple as it is.. I think many of us would be able to write a song like that. Our friend here was really into the whole song, he was shouting and screaming, it was really deafening. Oh!!! and he even asked the CROWD to sing along with him which .. of course all didn't (maybe a few who was really into his rock song did) but, goodness!! It was so hard to sing! It's not even singable. Shouting out forte notes all. At one part, this champion guy even forgot his words and starting humming some tune, Hahahahaha. You should see the look on his face, especially his eyes (Brother, don't lar make it so obvious! )

Eventually the poor fella was really out of breath, he couldn't do his Huuu-Huuu part properly. He stop for a while then took a quick breath and again.. Huuu-Huuu. ( No need to Huu-Huuu LAH LIKE THAT!!! Just end it!! ) I know he just wanted to end his song like those Bryan Addams being all nice but tak jadi..

Hahahahaha, Ok, I know I'm being very bad here but what can I say? Support your Local Artist! Hahahahaha!

People should have clap for him, No round of applause at all. Haha. so bad! Poor guys. Prolly cause they were singing to the wrong people. All the Datuk Datin don't appreciate his music.
What a way to get into the Merdeka mood. So tension O.o heart beating so fast all. Hahaha

Oh well, despite of it all, at least Malaysia will always be Malaysia and maybe that's one thing we can be proud of? =) Depends on how you see our country. Happy 51th Merdeka, Malaysia.

- Once again, Happy Birthday Jason and Jordan, God bless =)
Oh and if you wanna know how he sang that chorus part,
I can sing it for you !! hahaha.
Disturbing as it is, now it's stuck on my head and i can't get it out.



Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Mummy, I lost my head.

" Calming down. I know Your here, to stop the wave "

*on a random note*

I love black and white photos =D

KTM help me practise 'patients'

I wanna play tanglung




Thursday, August 21, 2008

To my two dearest sisters.


Yeap. Really missing you two.

To Emmerie : If your reading this? I met elicia a few days ago. Haha.Whao! How she's grown. Ooh. and was playing captain ball with Willis. Goodness. so tall d O.o Well, looking forward to see you, not sure when, but we WILL yeah? It's been a long time already since I last saw you. Btw, Just a shout out to wish you an early Happy Birthday =) Wish you well in Newcastle, hope your doing good? I don't know whether I've said this before but thank you for being there for me,well since when I was young. May God bless you.

To Che : yes yes =) you too! hehe. I read your blog. Good times yeah? Well, all the best in your studies, Btw, I like how you say it in your latest post ' But nope, I shall not sit here and whinge. Need to press on.' A good reminder to myself,when I tend to 'ber-emo' in all the good and sweet times when I look at photos. Oh well, =D

- keeping it properly in my memento,
Till then,
Focus I need. Study I should. Hardwork I shall.
in a verge of breaking down badly.
then again, smile =)

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

What's your deepest fear?

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyong measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselve, ' Who am I, to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not in just some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

- Nelson Mandela,in Inaugural Speech 1994

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Izzit the time to smile now.
- maybe later

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Steven Curtis Chapman Family on Good Morning America

The latest news about Maria .. and the family

Monday, August 11, 2008

Be It a reminder .. as He speaks

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away, stepped in and saved the day.
But once again,I say amen
and it's still raining as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm and
I will lift my hands for You are who You are no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried You hold in your hand
You never left my side and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again my strength is almost gone
how can I carry on if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls I barely hear
You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls I raise my hands
and praise the God who gives and takes away

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In bad times... Do you actually praise God?

Certainly we don't say ' O Lord, thank you for giving me a hard time, Oh thank you for this to happen...for this bad time. so and so..

do you?

- It's never easy doing so..
to lift up my heavy heart and hand to You.
but how often..?
do I actually do so
After all, you are the maker of Heaven and earth
my Papa-in-heaven.
and my help comes from You.




Thursday, August 7, 2008

Resisting Temptation!




KFC - 'King' of the road For Colin?

no?

KFC - Kill Fat Colin!!

(fats on the inside)


I want Kfc.. pass by today and the aroma is just... WAH!!!!??? cannot!!
gwah..yummy cheesy wedges. One dinner plate please? xD bucket?


Adidas King of the Road.this Sunday.ShahAlam.

-I'm so not ready for it at all -__-"

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

The moment of truth

We all have deep and dark secrets that we keep away from each other. (correct me if I'm wrong) but that's ok, cause we are memang not perfect human beings after all ya? * note * but of course, that SHOULDN'T be our excuse in life =)

It could be just about anything that you've have done, said or do and of course not being proud of at all. Yet even if it's from the past, if it happen many years back.

What happen if someone were to find out about it?

What will you like to tell them? the truth? or to just leave it. sweep it under the carpet? but don't you feel it won't be fair to them then?


If you are in such position, just think.

Will you still be able to forgive that person? Will you be able to accept it? the fact that IT happen although he/she would be the last person you would ever thought would do as such? if you were to find out about it?
out of a sudden, you come into a 'believe it or not' mode O.O

let's say, it's to YOUR dear friend, your life partner, family, guys?! your dead to your girlfriend man. or hey? it could be vice-verse? and hey? just think, this is the person whom is so dear to you. close relationship, family, come on? this is your girlfriend whom your with for so long d, she means so so much to you, your wife? O.o husband??


Must all things really come down to deception? to lie?

i don't mean to scare you. ahah, just em was having a thought.
I don't get the latest reality show ' the moment of truth' in star world.
I feel your really playing with fire.
litteraly.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Where glory shines from hearts alive


It's His Fame , His Passion for those He loves, to bless and touched the hearts of those who's yet to come to know Him as He uses the Passion Team.

He is the Chain Breaker, Price Payer, Shame Bearer, Grave Ender, Crown wearer, Rearranger , Hope's anchor, World Changer, Church Builder.

One awesome night worshipping our awesome God together.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Family by Yasmin Ahmad

Whenever I start to question myself, why major in Advertising? God gives an answer, and it's because of her, She's the reason why I want to study Advertising. It gives a whole lot of meaning to what I'm doing, other than just the stress-ness or busy squeezing out brain juices.

I love dramas, I love plays, I love musical, but I couldn't do a diploma in Performing Arts because it's not well known in Malaysia. Advertising is a powerful media whereby in each short clips, a strong message is being shared to everyone.

Thank you Yasmin Ahmad, for what you've done has touched me and I want to carry it on. Well that is .. If I CAN be as good. So here you go, those who've asked me before, this is the reason why.

-A proud malaysian =)

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Are you serious?? you got to be kidding me..

Determined Realists like to bear responsibility and welcome challenges. They are stable, reliable persons. External contacts are very important to them; they mix well and are very active. They are excellent organisers and are very happy when things are done correctly and punctually; they can quickly react impatiently if others are not as conscientious, orderly and dutiful as they are. They prefer structured work which produces visible results quickly to abstract, long-drawn-out processes. Determined Realists have no problem with routine as long as it serves efficiency. However, they very much dislike unexpected and unpredictable occurrences which mess up their careful plans. Once they have committed themselves to a cause they do this with dedication and are willing to make considerable sacrifices for it.

Determined Realists do not avoid conflicts and criticism but face up to them and look for solutions. As they have a keen eye for the errors and shortcomings of others and are often quick at expressing criticism, they sometimes rub people up the wrong way especially when they lose their temper and jump to conclusions. Due to their marked sense of justice they are quickly willing to correct themselves and never take offence if someone speaks to them frankly. You do not have to seek hidden motives with them; you always know where you are. Determined Realists are often found in executive positions as they combine commitment, competence and the ability to assert themselves. In their spare time, they often also accept responsibility in clubs and other institutions.

Traditions rate highly with Determined Realists. They attend every family event and never forget a birthday or wedding anniversary. Family and friends are very important to them. With their open, communicative manner, they find it easy to get to know people and have a large circle of friends and acquaintances. They are never superficial, but reliable and loyal friends who are always there when they are needed. Determined Realists take their relationships very seriously - they dream of finding a partner for life. In a love relationship, they seek above all stability and loyalty and here, too, they are willing to invest a lot in a harmonious togetherness. Determined Realists master crises or difficult phases with composure; they would never think of breaking a promise given. As a partner, one can always rely on their support.

Slow fade..

Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade

Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see

- A price will be paid, when you give yourself away.

Back again..


Looking at the time. Hmm, it's 12.35 in the morning . trying to remember how 3 months has been like. how some things are different now. wow? no wait .. aiyo?

Ahh..do miss the sound of the train early morning, waiting for it ? takes a long while. Passing shah alam station while the operator goes ' stesen shah alam, shah alam ', brings a smile on my face. yes i'll be smiling like a dungu. but i don't care. next thing you know .. I've reached my destination and there it is. College.

It's back to study life again. My brother seems to be happy about it. now that I won't be AS free to just rot, play ps, watch tv, sleep..

Looking at my subjects for this semester? well, study study and more study that needs to be done.

Cheers to college ? A chik! in ur dreams. ahah.

Great outdoors, i miss you.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

L.o.s.t

This is the chapter of my life, at where I'm standing. I feel lost. really lost. funny? Don't laugh. I'm serious here. The map is blur, my compass seem to be broken. help?

Yes, I know He is there
Ok. I'll be patient. I just feel like Britney Spears . No, I'm not a girl. Definitely not a woman! Just feel stuck in between. Stupid illustration . I know .
Lots of pressure . I can't breath . suffocating . headache . I don't know what to do anymore.
Seriously I don't. problematic . I hate .

Looking for a better tomorrow.
I do need You. I know your there. And this is just a chapter.
*But faster please can a not? sigh.
huh? be patient? ok la. don't think i have a choice here.
smile =)

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

For those who actually tries..

" The race may not be given to the swift or strong,
It's given to the one's who can endure flaws" - John Legend

Nothing is Impossible with God

Just a beginning..

From Taman Rakyat to Bukit Tabur to Gunung Nuang. This is only just a beginning of conquering a mountain =) My GOAL? the Highest Mountain! - - - Everest? O.o ( possible? yes? no? I don't know either ) Well pleased though, 4898 FT, It's higher than Genting Highland. Along side, great encouragement by fellows climbers. Hehe.

More to come, Preparing for a mental and physical strength now.

Cheers to the Great Outdoors.

By the way, something sounds familiar.

Have a good guide.
Be well prepared.
Train vigorously.
Be properly equipped.
Keep your eyes on the goal.
PERSEVERE.
Get a good grip and foothold.
Know which paths to take.
and YOU SHOULD NEVER CLIMB ALONE!
There's an Everest of life ahead of you.
Are you ready to face the challenge?

Hehe.. the good ol days. Gunung Stong anyone?
can't wait for G.tahan.

Monday, June 30, 2008

Still very the slow.

Dated : 29 June '08
Place : Dataran Merdeka
Time : 6.30 something..
Achievement :o.5 % ? Haha..

So, here we are again, the 'running gang' . This time around was just the 4 of us. bro.G and Chong keat couldn't make it due to ... reason of their own. Poor chong keat though he was sick. But nevertheless, the 4 semangat ppl again ( this time with grace =), getting ready for the ' ADIDAS KING OF THE ROAD ' , this run was just supposed to be a warm up/training/run for fun.

I have to say, this time around.. the t-shirt that they give was way better than the much revealing jersey in Klang . Ahah!

Olympic day run - 7km only. The race started at 7.30am, and yet it took me 1 hour to finish the race -__-" I reached the finished line at about 8.30am.. Blame the 'ayam goreng' and all the McD and KFC throughout the week. I feel so weak and fat ( fat on the inside ) (weak on the legs) . Much running is needed. If I even want to win. 1000+ for only 30 medals.

Getting up as early as 4 something in the morning to prepare yourself for a run .. can be really
-_-" dreadful. As to, when you are just about to sleep, and then next thing you know .. your alarm clock is ringing. Thanks to Edwin, I was awake by the free wake up call service ( I prolly need that when I start college again. Haha ) Btw, looks like I wasn't the only Zombie-fied one that morning! =)

But there is something about running that I'll always love about. The message when I run, how I remember God's word in the bible, when we run the race. I certainly wanted that medal badly, but in return, a set of reminder that when we run the race, forgetting what is behind us and straining toward what is ahead, pressing on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. I myself will not be disqualified for THAT prize. Let's just say that this spoke closely to my heart that day, and I was singing it throughout the run.

" I'm running the race
Marked out for me, Oh Jesus
I'm keeping the pace
You've placed inside my heart

Stopping to hear your words
As I'm looking for strength above
Jesus lead me where
You want me to go
Lord I don't want to travel on
Roads that you know I don't belong
Jesus lead me where
You want me to go "

-Funny how God always speaks in ways we wouldn't see it coming

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Comedy court

Hahahaha.. omgoodness! this is so funny!!

For more : go here : http://www.comedycourt.com.my/watchvideo_02.html



Lost in translation..

It's been a while seen I last saw her. I have to be honest. I don't really like her before, why? Don't ask. It's been a while, i can't remember when. time was running actually. I almost missed it.but today?

Today was the day. I was waiting for her outside. She was occupied. I waited. Door open. I went in and I saw her, I saw her face, knelt , and there she was. Wait . I thought she couldn't recognize me anymore, that's what THEY said. But she was looking at me. Into mine, she held her weak hand and grab mine. I just knelt there silently, and then I called her.

I know she was happy. I could feel it. We were looking at each other. I must say, this was the first. unusual was the word. My mind was searching for just that right particular words.

If only I knew how to say it rightly, If only she understands it.

" Ah ma, I'm sorry for not visiting you so often.. "

" Ah ma? yes I'm 19 now.. "

" You take care alright? I'll be praying for you. ah ma? be strong.. "

There was just only one word to describe me that very moment,
-pathetic-

I'm just glad that I saw her today, It was just the right thing to do.

After all, She is family..

Saturday, June 21, 2008

That was then.. this is my now

I wish to say that my fears are right behind me. and gone are the shadows and doubt.
You taught me Lord and you said that I was made of more than my yesterdays.
right here. right now. Use me. I stand today.. more than ever.


Help me. to find the strength,putting my fears behind me. to make me strong. so i can be. answers to the answer-less. strength to the weak. having that step of faith to the faithless. to have courage , and to fight the cowards. As I look around? I can't believe what i see. I smack my own head. to help me. make me realize,that..

That was then.. this is my now.

* I'm here now..more than I'll ever be.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Faith is all I need
- holding on to it.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

A MUST WATCH Drama

First and foremost, let me take this time to declare how much I enjoy and love the performing arts in Malaysia. Specially when it comes to their musical or dramas, even both! It makes me proud to be a malaysian =)



Directed by Dato’ Faridah Merican
Artistic Director Joe Hasham

Sybil, her husband, and the Captain (her Resistance contact) listen one evening to devastating news of British defeat throughout the peninsula. Suspicion is rife, Japanese collaborators are present in every town, and the feared Kempetai—the Japanese Military Police that is answerable only to itself—is beginning to take an interest in the small town. Sybil, however, refuses the Captain’s advice to flee to the jungle, and instead redoubles her efforts to thwart the Japanese. Before long, Dr Kathigasu is arrested on suspicion of aiding the resistance, and Sybil’s arrest follows soon after.
The story of a national hero, never before told in the form of performing arts! Sybil…

Date & Times: 12- 22 June @ 8.30pm Sundays: 3pm

* For a guy who may not know much about his own country history. This is awesome man! haha *

We welcome you.


"So it's with everything I am,
I reach out for your hands,
the hope for change,
the second chance you gave,
on you I'll throw my life,
casting all my fears aside,
how could greater love than this?
could possibly exist?"

June 14th, Saturday - was a night to remember, as 20 seek the Lord and 6 turn back to Him. Second chance speaks to those who is yet to come to know the Lord, the time is NOW and for those who has been wondering if God ever wants you anymore..

" Hey you, turn around .. come home, I've always been here..just waiting for you"

" Welcome home my child "

bit by bits you've been strayed. oh you've missed the chance!!?

your heart may be hard, your life may be shattered, But God is waiting for you with arms wide open. It's never to late.

Teen Scene
Every Sunday
11.15am
We welcome you =)
-A time whereby you may find something that you've been seeking in all your life-
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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Teen Scene Fest 08'
Coming near you
This Saturday
7.30pm
*you wouldn't want to miss it*
Call me if you wanna come for it.

Thursday, June 5, 2008

why bother?

Guess it's just not me not to..

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Colin's head like a volcano now..

When one start hating himself/herself,
I just got one question.
How can you live with yourselves???
It's hard to hate yourselves cause your practically living with yourselves for 24/7
You CAN'T run away from you.
you know it'll start getting worst right?
Start loving then..

Depression?
yes,practically everyone goes through that.
as sucky as it is.. It's part of life ( you can't run away )
Yes, we go through it.
But we do make it through!
REMEMBER,that we have GOD on our side?
forgotten who's Him already?
"if He is for us, who can be against us?"
Deal with it?
troubled? Start praying..

You immatures!!
What's going on?
im fed up with the nonsense!
handle it like an adult.
please..

I'm not all that... stop thinking that I'm so.
I'm nothing at all...
Just a boy who is happy with what he has, who he's with , what he's doing ..
that's it..

Now put that smile on your face..
Start loving,
Start praying..
Be appreciative =)

I FINALLY FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHH!! x) I first heard this from ms.Liew Shu lynn's blog,
and then..i dunno why.. but i felt in love with this song..
i can just listen to it everyday,everytime..non-stop
just keep on replaying..
GEE.. =D addicted..
at times, feel so sad listen to it..
fuh!
But i finally found the clip.
think im in love with this guy ' yiruma'
oooh... i love him.
wahahahahaha!
okok. *slap face*


i need the piano piece..
!!! and a piano teacher!!
where is my piano teacher? need to re-hire!!
anyone? can kindly teach me..please?
im even stuck with ' Only Hope ' =/
*shucks* shouldn't have stop my lessons 8 years ago.
-regret pulak-

Monday, June 2, 2008

In loving memory of Maria Sue Chapman..


Steven Curtis Chapman’s youngest child died Wednesday evening after being struck by a car driven by her teenage brother in the driveway of the family’s Williamson County home.

Maria, one of the Christian singer’s six children, was taken by LifeFlight to Vanderbilt Hospital, which confirmed the death, according to Laura McPherson, a spokeswoman for the Tennessee Highway Patrol.

The 5-year-old was hit by an SUV driven by her teenage brother, she said. Police did not give the driver’s name.

The teen was driving a Toyota Land Cruiser down the driveway of the rural home at about 5:30 p.m. and several children were playing in the area, McPherson said. He did not see Maria in the driveway before the vehicle struck her, she said.

“It appears to be a terrible accident,’’ McPherson said.

No charges are expected, she said. The accident was witnessed by two other children; the entire family was home at the time, McPherson said.

Singer/songwriter Chapman, who recently was inducted into Music City Walk of Fame, is one of contemporary Christian music’s most recognizable and most awarded names.

He and his wife Mary Beth have long been supporters of international adoption, having brought three girls from China into their family. Maria was the youngest.The couple is so active in the cause that they formed an organization, Shaohannah’s Hope, to aid families wanting to adopt.

With his latest music tour, which came through Nashville in November, Chapman started a campaign called “Change for Orphans”. He asked audience members at each stop to bring spare change to the concert, where it was counted and given to a local family to aid in their adoption process.

“I don’t know of anybody who loves his children more than he does and is so committed to the adoption concept, and to lose one, no matter what the circumstances, is heartbreaking beyond all comprehension,” said John Styll, president of the Nashville-based Gospel Music Association.

“He talks about his kids all the time. That’s his life. His kids are more important to him than music, that’s for sure.

”The tragedy was announced during Wednesday-night services at Harpeth Hills Church of Christ, which the family attends. Maria had just graduated from the church preschool.

And word spread throughout the tight-knit Christian music community on Wednesday evening.

Styll got the news not long after Maria’s death.

"I’m confident I can speak for everyone in the community to say we will do everything we can to support this family, as we would do at any time, but especially at a time like this,” he said.

Most of the Chapman family was at Vanderbilt children’s hospital after the accident and could not be contacted. The long, gravel driveway leading to the home west of Franklin was blocked off by Williamson County sheriff’s deputies.




Here's more..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ay1vgulzR8I - Her's daddy cinderella

To the Chapman's family,
May God be with you all in this hard time.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Finally.. Understood.

"He is no fool to gives what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose"

Yes im slow..but it answered my questions..

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Not giving up..

Oh, what I would do to have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant with just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me time and time again"Boy you'll never win, you'll never win."


If you accept defeat..that's what you get..
Don't quit till you got nothing left
Cause He's never giving up on you
Why should you?

Im fighting it..

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

A tiring yet interesting & an enjoying weekend.

Yes.. the title does says it all. I've been wanting to do things that i've never really got to do.. and so now .. I shall =) haha. Trying out new things is interestings..


Saturday : Fishing

Fishing along side Banting


This is the place. kinda small and ULU. haha.


A big thanks to this headless guy.
( Yes im sure you know this fella here)
Who helped me a lot ..
Fishing ain't easy at all.
To get the equipment ready...
Susah lo.
But i managed =)

Then again, at first i thought it was kinda like a date.. haha .. or a quality time spent with me fav unc? ( leongeng..don't jealous =) He brought his 2 friends -__- haha.. that of course.. not as noob as me. =)


This is albert.. A joker and well.. this is how he fishes. Ahah

And then .. there is this guy .. and his name is..erm..O.o aiyok! forgotten.. -___-" ok..let's call him the "sunglassesman" Salute wei! haha. cause he's like really good in fishing. *Must have the skills*

This happen to be the fish food which smells like "Chicken backside!" ugh.. the smell was just horrible.


Looks like ordinary dirt..when you get ur hand's dirty?but then.. the smell..ugh. Took me so long to wash my hands.. Haha cause the smell wouldn't go off.. even the next day. I played the guitar for worship with that hand..em..oh o..


Fishing takes a whole lot of patients.. and I guess. haha. I shall take this opportunity to let unc M know that it's not my thing? sorry.. after much thought.
Once in a while, i don't mind following you. Really. it IS interesting.. and can be fun and satisfying...



See what i mean? Hehe


All in a days work? But a big congrats to the "sunglassesman" who caught all 3 fishes.. and yes. I know many of you would have guessed.. i wouldn't be able to catch any for my first try ..so much for ( tell me what fish you want? i catch of you. wahahaha) Where got so lucky one yeah? haha.. Oh well.. at least "sunglassesman" gave me this fish as a present.. and i decided to keep it as a pet and name is Matthew .. ahaha..okok. My mom actually made it into a dish O.O !!!



R.I.P
May you rest in peace..
Fishy
-**** - 22 of May 2008-


Sunday : HIKING!




.Melawati.Bukit Tabur.

An experience I'll never forget. It's quite dangerous though. No string attached while rock climbing but the hills and jungle track was just awesome. We actually started at 4.30pm and ended up in the dark at 9.30pm..around there lah, when we reach down from the hill. But it was so cool! even when it was in the dark ( ok lah, i admit i was a lil afraid of the dark. Was really dark ) I pity Damien though, who was complaining throughout the journey. Much falling down and all.. but Hey? you did it as well right? Hehe!


It was really hard for me to take pictures while climbing.. because it was just going up and up. Ahah. But i managed to take a few while climbing..


As you can see.. certain area. sorry for the 'shaky hands' ..was really tiring.. could'n stable my hands ..



After a while, we stop at 1/4 up the hill.. and in amazement..The view was just beautiful..And our guide.. Ben? says he comes here every weekend. It's like his playground.. Oh goodness. If only Taman Rakyat is like that..

Taman Rakyat not so HIGH =(


Someone one's told me that .. when you wanna take a good picture. It's either in the morning or the evening, after that.. the lightings wouldn't be so good.. or even worst? no lighting. So yes, At this time, it's like 6 something? so .. the pictures might not be as clear? But you still can see lah =) eheh.. think was peanut


This was about half way through our hiking.. and as you can see =) Speechless as i am. I stand in awe in God's creation. Edwin was like saying " This can't be Malaysia. Are we in Malaysia??? " the Mountains are really beautiful .. with all those "cotton candies cloud " hovering it. fuh! Just absolutely wonderful.. One thing, taking picture is not as good as seeing it with your own two eyes and keeping it in your memories box. Plus i don't have any Nikon.So that was the futhers i can zoom ..


Oh and i forgot to mention, there was this dog who was so cute! and clever. haha who was following us up the hike. The dog was just so smart!!! He knows his way up..But he only follow us until a certain area. Wanted to bring the dog back home. haha..

This was my favourite part of them all. hahaha
*Rock climbing*


Ms Lee..doing her thing there. haha.


By the time we were up the hill.. It was getting really dark..And i so 'bodoh' lah!!! michelle took some few pictures when the lightings was on. You could actually see the whole of KL with the lightings.. argh! Wasted.

And so .. That was it.. A really good experience I must say.. One that i don't mind going for another time? =) Hahaha.. And ok. I have to say that its way better than fishing (then again. sorry matt )


Here's to the 8 of us who made it. and of course
we came down safely.
A few bruises and cuts no harm to it =)



Except for this stupid thing !!!
blue black right after sucking all my juicy blood!!!!
and the worst part.. blood just couldn't stop flowing..


Was mad because I had 9 of this over me..For my first time samore.. sigh.. So sad..Usually Im somehow lucky? Don't get it.the stupid thing.. still wanna run away after being bathe with salt..

But I did enjoy myself very very much >_<

TO the great outdoors!!! I can't wait for the next one? Haha
The one in Kelantan..Gunung Stong!

Till then,
I shall start working out more!

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Another story, please do continue to pray for my Ah ma. She is getting better though.. Thx
and YES!! PRAISE GOD!!! I passed my Sem 3 !! hehe. Now i can enjoy the rest of my holidays in peace .. and 23 days more.. ..