why bother?

Guess it's just not me not to..

Colin's head like a volcano now..

When one start hating himself/herself,
I just got one question.
How can you live with yourselves???

It's hard to hate yourselves cause your practically living with yourselves for 24/7

You CAN'T run away from you.
you know it'll start getting worst right?
Start loving then..

Depression?
yes,practically everyone goes through that.
as sucky as it is.. It's part of life ( you can't run away )
Yes, we go through it.
But we do make it through!

REMEMBER,that we have GOD on our side?

forgotten who's Him already?
"if He is for us, who can be against us?"
Deal with it?
troubled? Start praying..

You immatures!!
What's going on?
im fed up with the nonsense!
handle it like an adult.
please..

I'm not all that... stop thinking that I'm so.
I'm nothing at all...

Just a boy who is happy with what he has, who he's with , what he's doing ..
that's it..

Now put that smile on your face..
Start loving,
Start praying..

Be appreciative =)

I FINALLY FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHH!! x) I first heard this from ms.Liew Shu lynn's blog,
and then..i dunno why.. but i felt in love with this song..
i can just listen to it everyday,everytime..non-stop
just keep on replaying..
GEE.. =D addicted..
at times, feel so sad listen to it..
fuh!
But i finally found the clip.
think im in love with this guy ' yiruma'
oooh... i love him.
wahahahahaha!
okok. *slap face*

i need the piano piece..
!!! and a piano teacher!!
where is my piano teacher? need to re-hire!!
anyone? can kindly teach me..please?
im even stuck with ' Only Hope ' =/
*shucks* shouldn't have stop my lessons 8 years ago.
-regret pulak-

In loving memory of Maria Sue Chapman..

Steven Curtis Chapman’s youngest child died Wednesday evening after being struck by a car driven by her teenage brother in the driveway of the family’s Williamson County home.

Maria, one of the Christian singer’s six children, was taken by LifeFlight to Vanderbilt Hospital, which confirmed the death, according to Laura McPherson, a spokeswoman for the Tennessee Highway Patrol.

The 5-year-old was hit by an SUV driven by her teenage brother, she said. Police did not give the driver’s name.

The teen was driving a Toyota Land Cruiser down the driveway of the rural home at about 5:30 p.m. and several children were playing in the area, McPherson said. He did not see Maria in the driveway before the vehicle struck her, she said.

“It appears to be a terrible accident,’’ McPherson said.

No charges are expected, she said. The accident was witnessed by two other children; the entire family was home at the time, McPherson said.

Singer/songwriter Chapman, who recently was inducted into Music City Walk of Fame, is one of contemporary Christian music’s most recognizable and most awarded names.

He and his wife Mary Beth have long been supporters of international adoption, having brought three girls from China into their family. Maria was the youngest.The couple is so active in the cause that they formed an organization, Shaohannah’s Hope, to aid families wanting to adopt.

With his latest music tour, which came through Nashville in November, Chapman started a campaign called “Change for Orphans”. He asked audience members at each stop to bring spare change to the concert, where it was counted and given to a local family to aid in their adoption process.

“I don’t know of anybody who loves his children more than he does and is so committed to the adoption concept, and to lose one, no matter what the circumstances, is heartbreaking beyond all comprehension,” said John Styll, president of the Nashville-based Gospel Music Association.

“He talks about his kids all the time. That’s his life. His kids are more important to him than music, that’s for sure.

”The tragedy was announced during Wednesday-night services at Harpeth Hills Church of Christ, which the family attends. Maria had just graduated from the church preschool.

And word spread throughout the tight-knit Christian music community on Wednesday evening.

Styll got the news not long after Maria’s death.

"I’m confident I can speak for everyone in the community to say we will do everything we can to support this family, as we would do at any time, but especially at a time like this,” he said.

Most of the Chapman family was at Vanderbilt children’s hospital after the accident and could not be contacted. The long, gravel driveway leading to the home west of Franklin was blocked off by Williamson County sheriff’s deputies.

Here's more..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ay1vgulzR8I - Her's daddy cinderella

To the Chapman's family,
May God be with you all in this hard time.

Finally.. Understood.

"He is no fool to gives what he cannot keep, to gain what he cannot lose"

Yes im slow..but it answered my questions..

Not giving up..

Oh, what I would do to have the kind of strength it takes

To stand before a giant with just a sling and a stone

Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors shaking in their armor

Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me

Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed

The giant keeps on telling me time and time again"Boy you'll never win, you'll never win."

If you accept defeat..that's what you get..
Don't quit till you got nothing left
Cause He's never giving up on you
Why should you?

Im fighting it..

A tiring yet interesting & an enjoying weekend.

Yes.. the title does says it all. I've been wanting to do things that i've never really got to do.. and so now .. I shall =) haha. Trying out new things is interestings..

Saturday : Fishing

Fishing along side Banting

This is the place. kinda small and ULU. haha.

A big thanks to this headless guy.

( Yes im sure you know this fella here)

Who helped me a lot ..

Fishing ain't easy at all.

To get the equipment ready...

Susah lo.

But i managed =)

Then again, at first i thought it was kinda like a date.. haha .. or a quality time spent with me fav unc? ( leongeng..don't jealous =) He brought his 2 friends -__- haha.. that of course.. not as noob as me. =)

This is albert.. A joker and well.. this is how he fishes. Ahah

And then .. there is this guy .. and his name is..erm..O.o aiyok! forgotten.. -___-" ok..let's call him the "sunglassesman" Salute wei! haha. cause he's like really good in fishing. *Must have the skills*

This happen to be the fish food which smells like "Chicken backside!" ugh.. the smell was just horrible.

Looks like ordinary dirt..when you get ur hand's dirty?but then.. the smell..ugh. Took me so long to wash my hands.. Haha cause the smell wouldn't go off.. even the next day. I played the guitar for worship with that hand..em..oh o..

Fishing takes a whole lot of patients.. and I guess. haha. I shall take this opportunity to let unc M know that it's not my thing? sorry.. after much thought.
Once in a while, i don't mind following you. Really. it IS interesting.. and can be fun and satisfying...

See what i mean? Hehe

All in a days work? But a big congrats to the "sunglassesman" who caught all 3 fishes.. and yes. I know many of you would have guessed.. i wouldn't be able to catch any for my first try ..so much for ( tell me what fish you want? i catch of you. wahahaha) Where got so lucky one yeah? haha.. Oh well.. at least "sunglassesman" gave me this fish as a present.. and i decided to keep it as a pet and name is Matthew .. ahaha..okok. My mom actually made it into a dish O.O !!!

R.I.P
May you rest in peace..
Fishy
-**** - 22 of May 2008-

Sunday : HIKING!

.Melawati.Bukit Tabur.

An experience I'll never forget. It's quite dangerous though. No string attached while rock climbing but the hills and jungle track was just awesome. We actually started at 4.30pm and ended up in the dark at 9.30pm..around there lah, when we reach down from the hill. But it was so cool! even when it was in the dark ( ok lah, i admit i was a lil afraid of the dark. Was really dark ) I pity Damien though, who was complaining throughout the journey. Much falling down and all.. but Hey? you did it as well right? Hehe!

It was really hard for me to take pictures while climbing.. because it was just going up and up. Ahah. But i managed to take a few while climbing..

As you can see.. certain area. sorry for the 'shaky hands' ..was really tiring.. could'n stable my hands ..

After a while, we stop at 1/4 up the hill.. and in amazement..The view was just beautiful..And our guide.. Ben? says he comes here every weekend. It's like his playground.. Oh goodness. If only Taman Rakyat is like that..

Taman Rakyat not so HIGH =(

Someone one's told me that .. when you wanna take a good picture. It's either in the morning or the evening, after that.. the lightings wouldn't be so good.. or even worst? no lighting. So yes, At this time, it's like 6 something? so .. the pictures might not be as clear? But you still can see lah =) eheh.. think was peanut

This was about half way through our hiking.. and as you can see =) Speechless as i am. I stand in awe in God's creation. Edwin was like saying " This can't be Malaysia. Are we in Malaysia??? " the Mountains are really beautiful .. with all those "cotton candies cloud " hovering it. fuh! Just absolutely wonderful.. One thing, taking picture is not as good as seeing it with your own two eyes and keeping it in your memories box. Plus i don't have any Nikon.So that was the futhers i can zoom ..

Oh and i forgot to mention, there was this dog who was so cute! and clever. haha who was following us up the hike. The dog was just so smart!!! He knows his way up..But he only follow us until a certain area. Wanted to bring the dog back home. haha..

This was my favourite part of them all. hahaha
*Rock climbing*

Ms Lee..doing her thing there. haha.

By the time we were up the hill.. It was getting really dark..And i so 'bodoh' lah!!! michelle took some few pictures when the lightings was on. You could actually see the whole of KL with the lightings.. argh! Wasted.

And so .. That was it.. A really good experience I must say.. One that i don't mind going for another time? =) Hahaha.. And ok. I have to say that its way better than fishing (then again. sorry matt )

Here's to the 8 of us who made it. and of course
we came down safely.
A few bruises and cuts no harm to it =)

Except for this stupid thing !!!
blue black right after sucking all my juicy blood!!!!
and the worst part.. blood just couldn't stop flowing..

Was mad because I had 9 of this over me..For my first time samore.. sigh.. So sad..Usually Im somehow lucky? Don't get it.the stupid thing.. still wanna run away after being bathe with salt..

But I did enjoy myself very very much >_<

TO the great outdoors!!! I can't wait for the next one? Haha
The one in Kelantan..Gunung Stong!

Till then,
I shall start working out more!

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Another story, please do continue to pray for my Ah ma. She is getting better though.. Thx
and YES!! PRAISE GOD!!! I passed my Sem 3 !! hehe. Now i can enjoy the rest of my holidays in peace .. and 23 days more.. ..